Something about depression...and music!

Sometimes, my feelings will drop straight down the valley when I listen to certain music or when I meet some people that have this aura I cannot connect to. Maybe, they post a threat to me. Yes, I have to admit that I am very sensitive and overly emotional. My feelings change without a reason...or is there a reason I don't know? I can be very happy and motivated and suddenly, BHAM! Just like a snap of the fingers, I feel sad and depressed and lazy. Depression is one thing, the only thing that can make my life miserable. When I am depressed, I tend to hide in this little world of mine and sulk in there. Somehow, my imaginative mind will then start to create all these scenarios around me just to make myself feel better. BUT, that's only in my mind. The reality is, my condition worsens with time. Just like what J.K. Rowling said:"depression is the worse thing a living person can get". It is undoubtedly true. I think I have the same opinion about 'depression' as ms. Rowling here. She described depression as dementors that suck all the happiness out of a living being whereas I used to describe depression as darkness. It will swallow you, engulf you slowly, causing you to die a slow but torturing and brutal death. My way to fight depression? Music.

Yes, I said that CERTAIN music makes me feel depressed but most of them still gives me live. For example, wild child by enya. This song is very inspirational and motivational. Every time when I am having a bad day, I'll listen to it and feel fresh after that. This song truly captured 'the art of living'. "ever close your eyes? Ever stop and listen?","give into it now, like you've got nothing missing, you don't need a reason, let the day go on and on ", doesn't it make you feel alive again? Doesn't it make you feel like you live for yourself and not for your work, your friends the society? I do. I feel alive listening to it and I love it! Now, the songs that make me depress. They aren't really negative and all but sometimes, when you go through certain stages of life or you just experienced something, you'll feel that the songs are actually making you feel worse, not better. Just now there was a drizzle at my place. My mood was already bad as I have tons of work to do and I am very tired. It was night time and I was sitting in the car starring out of the window, gazing into the rain. It really is a sad scene. And then the radio station played this song:yesterday once more. Undoubtedly, this is a very nice song but I was in a foul mood when listening to this and negative images and thoughts kept appearing in my mind. I thought about the death of Karen, I thought of all my worries and the happy, carefree times I used to have. I became more depressed after that. Thanks to the weather too. But now I feel so much more better. All I did was just listen to some happy songs with motivational lyrics and I'm fine.

That's the miracle of music. That's the beauty of it. It's late, I'm going to bed. I hope that I can help those people who face depression to walk out of it and start a new life! At least try to make the situation better, try to loosen up a bit and breathe. Well, time to go. Bye.